Love Letter #94

There are so many things that I want to tell you

The first is that

I hate you.

The second is that

I hate you.

The third is that

I hate you.

The fourth is that

I hate you.

But then if I hate you so much

why are you constantly on my mind?

I still hate you

regardless.

Love Letter #93

I don’t give a fuck what you do with your life

go home back to your fucking wife

I don’t need your excuses or your weak lame advice

I don’t give a shit about you

and what you’re going to do with your future

as long as it doesn’t involve me

I don’t really care

don’t you fucking dare

reappear 

after weeks on end

telling me how much you missed me

and can’t wait to see me

then just cancel on me again

once you get my feelings all twisted up in a knot

I don’t give a fuck what you do with your life

just stay out of mine

before you continue to cut me up with your knife

of never-ending lies

and your secrecy

I don’t want nothing to do with you

so fuck off and

let me the hell be.

Children's Book Review: Interstellar Cinderella

Raising a young girl in today’s world (or any world) can be very difficult or interesting to say the least. With different influences coming from many directions, I knew that I wanted to raise a strong minded female who can achieve anything if she puts her mind to it. When researching certain books with strong female leads, my husband stumbled upon the book: “Interstellar Cinderella” by Deborah Underwood, illustrated by Meg Hunt.

This book is a different take on the classic Cinderella story but it takes place in space. There is a prince, a stepmother and two step sisters. Cinderella is a strong character who loves fixing things and dreams of being an engineer. She is constantly fixing things around the house and is always studying to better her techniques.

One day, an announcement is made about the prince having a Royal Space Parade, inviting everyone in the Solar System to attend. Of course, the wicked stepmother informs Cinderella that she can attend if she fixes a broken ship. And of course, the stepmother tricks Cinderella by taking Cinderella’s tool box with her and her daughters while they attend the Royal Space Parade.

Indeed Cinderella’s fairy godrobot (not godmother this time) comes to Cinderella’s rescue and gives her a special space outfit along with her sonic socket wrench. However, she must get back to her home by midnight. Finally Cinderella gets to attend the Royal Space Parade. While she’s attending the Royal Space Parade, she notices one rocket ship starting to burn. She comes to the person’s rescue by fixing the ship with her socket wrench. The person is thankful for Cinderella’s help and they end up talking for hours about rocket ships, to the point that Cinderella loses track of time and must rush home. While she is rushing away she loses her socket wrench and the person finds it. The person, if you haven’t concluded, is the prince.

The prince is so enthralled with Cinderella and needs to find her. He sets out on a quest to find the fascinating young lady that he connected with by bringing along the socket wrench. Whoever can fix the broken rocket ship, is the one he is destined to be with. The story follows the same timeline as the Disney classic and he has the stepsisters try to fix the broken rocket ship and finds out that they are unable to fix it. Meanwhile, the stepmother has trapped Cinderella in the attic tied up but she is rescued by her robot mouse. Cinderella quickly fixes the rocket ship and the prince asks her to marry him. Now, this is the funny part, Cinderella claims she is too young for marriage but she’ll be gladly be his Chief Mechanic.

Now how great is that? Every dam Disney movie (okay not all, but most) has the prince and princess fall in love in like 5 minutes and it makes me cringe. So instead of Cinderella wanting to marry the prince, she understands that she just met this dude and she’ll rather do something that she loves – fixing rocket ships. She’s ambitious and thinks about her future (probably her retirement plan too, lol). She’s a go getter, analytical and confident in her abilities. I love this Cinderella because she’s the type of female who I would likely daughter to be. She’s the type of role model that doesn’t look for love, but loves herself and understands what she wants. She’s a go-getter and she has a bright future ahead of her. And maybe, just maybe she’ll end up marrying the prince but that’s not her objective at the moment, which is great.

I highly recommend this book because it has a strong female lead who understands her dreams and aspirations. She doesn’t need anyone to define her and she knows what she wants out of her life. She is a role model for any young lady in this day and age and who doesn’t want a strong role model? – Peace and Love

Love Letter #92

I know how deeply terrified you are

of loving me

I am the calendar girl

you stare at on the internet.

I am the forever young chameleon 

shape shifting 

in various costumes.

I am your vixen

on the pages of Playboy

posing your favorite ways.

I am the sex machine

you dream about at night.

But I am also the girl

you once loved

so long ago.

Love Letter #91

You didn’t break it 

no you didn’t

I thought you did

until I had another

that made me red

for hours on end

I’m elated to know

that it wasn’t you

who had broken me

but another

who was kinder

smarter

and who was willing

to take care of my soul

so technically

I lost it to him

and not you

Thank God 

for small miracles. 

Love Letter #90

I am granting the Universe my wish

that one day you’ll be mine

me lying in your arms

as you rub my back 

and kiss my forehead

one day you’ll be mine

waking up to you

to the smell of you

to the kiss of you

one day you’ll be mine

saying good morning to me everyday

sleeping with you everyday

laughing with you everyday

smiling with you everyday

one day you’ll be mine

but right now

I’ll just live my life

patiently waiting 

for you

to be mine.

Love Letter #89

Who would have thought

my first time

would be with a pitiful jerk

a smooth talker

with nothing but shameful half truths

of what he wanted from me

It was quick

dismissive

and all over before I knew it

left me scarred for the majority of my 20’s

searching for someone to just love me

after you used me up

and took away

the one thing

that I would never get back

but it taught me

it was more important how I handled it

afterwards

that defined who I was

and who I was

was an over sexualized girl

who didn’t know who I was

until I had to experience 

what I needed to experience

in my 20s.

Love Letter #88

While you’re gone

I will not have lost much

but will gain more time

in developing who I am

I get to focus on me

and do all the things that I love to do

I get to please me

and learn to smile again

to love myself again

instead of always focusing on you

in making you happy

Then why do I keep letting you back in?