While you’re gone
I will not have lost much
but will gain more time
in developing who I am
I get to focus on me
and do all the things that I love to do
I get to please me
and learn to smile again
to love myself again
instead of always focusing on you
in making you happy
Then why do I keep letting you back in?
So here you go again
running to your cave
to think about all the things
that are on your mind
your job
your school
your love
me?
I wonder if I am on your mind
when you’re in your dark cave
are you thinking of me?
am I the one who you’re really
thinking about?
am I the one who made you run?
Just know that when you reemerge
I will be here waiting for you
in the sunlight.
It was so easy to catch me back then
a girl oozing with low self esteem
sweet words with no backup
made me succumb to the many boys
who entered my life
told me lies
after lies
believing them all to be true
because I lacked what I needed
inside of me
It was so easy to catch me back then
just open the door for me
tell me how pretty I am
caress my hair
and tell me what I want to hear
now after all these years
I laugh at what a fool I was
because I am not so easy to catch anymore
except when it comes to you
I met you in a shady corner of this club
that played hiphop music
you rubbed up close to me
moving to the beat of the song
you told me how pretty I was
I never heard those words before
so it was easy to catch me back then
we exchanged numbers that night
my heart fluttered
I couldn’t believe a man
who was like you
was attracted to me
we kissed a few days later
and cuddled together
in my dorm room
our relationship quickly turned into friendship
and after all these years
I still call you my friend
I came to New York City
for the endless diversity
that I never received in my small little town
I saw so many ethnicities
mixed with exquisite cuisines
different flavors and swagger all around
surrounding my nights with the sights and sounds
overwhelmed adrenaline of the nightlife scene
flashes of light and heavy music of the bass
friendships coming and going
as I bask in this cultural phenomenon
sinking deeper into my emotions
of the many men who wanted to seek my pleasure
but I soon discovered
they were not much different
than what I had left behind.
Oh baby
the way you seduce me
sets my body on fire
lighting the flame that I thought had gone out
forever
you bring moisture to a once deserted place
capturing hot flashes
not brought upon by age
but by the touch of your fingers
the taste of your lips
the thrust of your loins
I love the way that you seduce me.
Oh you Leo Man
You’re the King of the Jungle
Nah the African Prince that’s for sure
rocking that swagger and confidence
Many women at your beck and call
wanting to sit beside you on your throne
but you’re a Lion, ready to roam
the African plains for the perfect Lioness
someone who’s slick and just as juicy
ready to rock the runway strutting Gucci
I can be your Michelle and You can be Barack
I could be your steady Betty rock
luxurious, charming and enticing
jewels, diamond filled with icing
stubborn to the core
and think you’re always right
that’s for sure
I want to love you forever
past the end of the night
oh you Leo man
I just want to hold your hand
while we step onto the spotlight
our future is destined
if you’re ready to share the limelight
I never loved a Cancer boy
but I know how they turn off and on
like a switch of a light
going from vicious moodiness
to overshadowing bright
they are ambitious with their compassion
but will argue their point
until there is a clash in
butting heads with people who think differently
than them
will get their way until everyone gives in
but you’re loyal and into your family
loving every one of them to the T.
They will stand up for you and be overly
protective
defending you against other’s perspective.
You’re the most tender lover that I never had
but I must tread lightly before I get you mad
I don’t know if I will get Dr. Jekyll or Mr. Hyde
but if I listen closely and open up
you could be my closest confident
and I’ll hopefully become the girl
you’ll always want.
I am always at your beck and call
whenever you come around
I hang my tongue out
waiting to be touched and rubbed
I can’t get enough of you
even when you disappear for weeks on end
I still forgive you
welcoming you back with the wag of my tail
why do I keep falling for you
when I know that
you’re just a fucking dog?
